It’s a new year.
With a new year comes the obligatory reflection on the year past, and looking back I realize just how tumultuous 2011 was. There were ups, and there were downs. Boy, were there downs. And struggles. Like when the BF first moved to Charlotte and the struggle I faced in deciding to move away from home. Then, I struggled to sell my house, struggled to rent my house, and struggled to find a condo to rent. When I couldn’t sell the house, I struggled with becoming a landlord. I struggled with the world’s worst movers. Then, I struggled to plant baby roots in a new city. I started my new job and struggled with the realization that it wasn’t exactly what I was looking for. I struggled with the decision to leave that new job for a new-new job. I struggled to be happy. Far too much.
Amidst all of that there were also ups, and as I think of them thoughts of my family rush into my mind with an energetic fury. Just thinking about them makes my eyes start to water. I think of deep conversations with my mom over steaming cups of espresso, sitting on the deck with my dad while we slammed Lays potato chips and Lawsons chip dip like we hadn’t eaten in days, long laughter-filled phone calls with my sister, and hand-hugs with my brother. I love them and I miss them, and I think that makes me love them even more. Oh, and those watering eyes? Now I’m sobbing as I type this. (I know, I am an emotional basketcase.) And then there’s the BF. He’s the lucky recipient of my often irrational sometimes irate behavior, and he handles it like Mother Teresa. And then there’s Charlotte. The city I love and absolutely adore. The city I’ve explored by car and by foot, but mostly foot. And the food. O.m.g. the food.
Through it all, this blog kept me sane. It gave me a purpose. Something to fill every ounce of my free time. Something to work on, and ponder about, and grow. It was the key to making new friends in the Queen City and connecting with local restaurants and epicureans alike. It’s admittedly inconsistent and jumps from place to place and idea to idea. It’s up and it’s down. It’s happy and it’s sad. It’s not always proper.
But enough reflecting already! It’s time to be in the now, right here, on January 1, 2012. And what better way to start the new year than with some list-making (in Excel), of course. My list of hopes for 2012 is growing at a rapid pace. A few of them are:
- Find more time to write.
- Be greener.
- Save more money.
- Pay more on my student friggin loans. *insert dagger throwing here*
- Find more time for hobbies.
- Find more time to sit in coffee shops.
- Be more organized.
- Do a better job of staying connected with family.
- Laugh more.
I saw a lot of “mores” and a lot of “er’s” on this list, and from this I came to my 2012 new years resolution: Relax, Enjoy Life, and Do-Morer.